"And somewhere, maybe someday,

maybe somewhere far away I'll find a second little person, who will look at me and say, 'I know you. You're the one I've waited for. Let's have some fun.'"

I have a very deep disdain for the phrase "There's a lot of fish in the sea", when it is applied to my lack of a relationship. Come March, I'll have been single for two years. It's mostly my fault though, I've had so many chances for wonderful boys to be a part of my life. I have a problem though, I just won't tear down the brick wall surrounding my heart. I don't let people in as much as I should. It's unhealthy. I mean, I'll only cry in front of two people. One of the two is one of the reasons I cry so much. Can tear ducts run out?

I don't think it's very healthy to be so afraid of being hurt, also. I don't trust anyone. I always feel like people say they care about me to gain my trust, then crush me. I feel like my friends talk behind my back. I feel like my friends laugh at my problems. I feel like I shouldn't trust anyone. This can't be good at all.

I recently saw Up In The Air, it's a wonderful movie. The ending surprised me. I'm not much of a movie critic, and it doesn't take too much for me to just hands down adore a movie, but man, did that ending get me. The soundtrack is also nice. George Clooney is very attractive for an older man. I'm just saying.