Meow, at the end of the day I'm always so lonely. I need a little sister. No matter how many times I will hear that I, in fact, do not want a sibling, I still want one. I want someone to look up to me, someone who won't mind spending time with me. Someone who will ask me for homework help, and believe every word I say, almost dogmatically. A little sister sounds wonderful, I could dress her up and watch her eyes shine. I told my mother this, she said I should get a doll.
"Sometimes I don't think people realize how lonely it is to be a kid."
I'm tired of watching everyone grow up and change. It makes me sound like even more of a sissy, but it really does hurt me to watch everyone grow up and away. It hurts so much to be so afraid to talk to childhood friends, I mean they were my best fucking friends in elementary school. What the hell happened? They're strangers now. I really hope I don't lose the few friends I'm trying to hold onto now. They're my world, and frankly, my distractions from the inevitable "growing up". I feel like I stay young with them, which is a weird feeling when you're 17. Feeling like you're old, that is.
The things I'm most nostalgic about are the petty worries I had as a child. I wish all my worries in the middle of the day was just that someone was going to count on my swing. I want to be oblivious again, blind me, please.
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